And the devils in disguise took flight...

Ain't Gone 'N Give Up On Love ~ Stevie Ray Vaughan

I ain't gone 'n' give up on love....Love won't give up on me
I ain't gone 'n' give up on love....Love ain't gone 'n' give up on me
Every tear that I've cried....Only washed away the fear inside

Now I, I ain't gone 'n' give up on love
Every beat of my heart....Pounds with joy and not with pain
Every beat of my heart....Pounds with joy and not in vain
And although those are painful memories....Only brought me to my knees
I was just given up on love

Little Johnny Taylor told us so long ago
What about the midnight cryin'....Wo that cheatin' and lyin'
What about the price that will....Oh surely be paid
Those that gave up on love....Love will have it's day
I ain't givin' up on love

I ain't gone 'n' give up on love....Love won't give up on me
I ain't gone 'n' give up on love....Love won't give up on me
Every time I cry....Love just won't let me be....Won't set me free

Well that party was awesome. So far I hav yet to find a picture of me, but that's fine, so many people had better costumes. Like Kitty, she was smokin' as Phoenix from X-Men! So hawt! Then there was Davies as Tyler Durden. Very cool. Jordan was pretty awesome while he still had his costume on, Sex Robot. Kylen and Biff were very cool as each other. All in all I think it was a pretty good time. Everyone was excellent with their costumes.

I'm actually really tired now. I just got off the phone with work and I'm not going because I feel like puking. I think it's a combination of the fact I had bad sleeping habits during the week on top of the fact that I didn't sleep till around 4 at the party, I may be getting sick, and I got in an arguement with Andy over MSN last night. Hopefully I think we solved the problem, but I think it may be a little more complicated then that. I hope we solved it... I don't want to feel like I did last night ever again.

Of all the fairy tale endings....

Blue Veins ~ The Raconteurs

When I was surrounded by the world
You were the only one who came
And you were the only one astounded
Which kept me grounded
As the other girls thrashed my very name

Then I looked over
Just in time to see her smiling back at me
And saying everything's OK
As long as you're inside my blue veins
Your blue veins

Yeah and the feeling that you gave me
No matter what I do or where I go
It always will remain
And those who would enslave me to get to me must get past you and will have no luck
Cause you'll protect me from all pain

The most beautiful, yeah the most beautiful thing cause anything else can't compare
Must be the blood that's running through your blue veins
Your blue veins

[Strange part in reverse]

Your blue veins
And I know you won't deceive me
Like the rest and there's nothing you need to explain
You always were the first one to believe me
When I said to you girl
I think it's gonna rain
But I could be wrong

Yeah but all of these things
All these things
They're all truly nice but ain't nothing
Ain't nothing compared to the love that's running through your little blue veins
Your blue veins

So I wass sitting in my living room last night, frantically trying to finish work the was due today, and when 3:30 am came around I was amazed at how very awake I was.I know that doesn't sound very relevant to anything, but that normally only happens when something is bothering me. So as I was lying in bed I couldn't put my finger on it. I have been havinng so much fun lately that I couldn't think of anything, aside from the occasional homesickness. Bascially, all I could come up with is that something in my subconscious is unhappy and I can't figure out what it is.

Can't wait until tomorrow though. I managed to work out the most of my costume. As long as I don't go outside for long periods of time I won't freeze to death. *Note to self: bring jeans in case of another 7-11 mission*

I'm excited to see everyone in costume!

Dancing in the dark...

Eva ~ Orgy
you know i've started to grow since you've been away.
lately it's scarier not knowing,
what's become of you
are you proud of me now? I can't tell
i'm not as fearless as you.

[chorus:]
still i pretend that you're still standing by,
to show me wrong from right,
never got a chance to say good bye.
take this gift from me,
hold it deep in mind forever,
and never let this go.

i used to think you were crazy,
when you were hooked to the screen.
but now they tell me that you're in a better place
but where did you go?
and i swear sometimes you're watching over me
still i'd give the world for the chance
just to see your face again.

[chorus]

now, now there's nothing left but time,
know that i'm following you.
eva's always on my mind and it makes me wonder.
what happened to you?
you know it makes me wonder.

I've been thinking a lot lately. Nothing really important, just wondering about the "what if"s like I tend to do. As I look out the glass door of my house, I can see the rain falling again. I always seem to smile in the rain.

I can't wait for the party on Friday! Thanks to Jordan I have everything I need for my costume now. Next time I wonder if we'll actually get lunch first when we go for lunch...

Lost in the space...

Ok, so I'm not really new to this but I had restart it. My other account is broken....

So, since I moved, I've actually learned a bit about myself. Sometimes I'm not quite sure what it is I've learned but I know that I'm not the same person. Last night when I was walking with Jordan, I realized how much of a small town girl I had (and guess I still am) been. And now, I feel like almost a new girl all together.

I'm glad I came here, but part of me is still staring at the river from the bridge back home. The rain reminded me of my old home, and I was glad that I had someone to enjoy it with... even if we did get soaked. But to have someone there, someone to talk to so casually, someone who would really talk with me and listen, made me feel like my home is in both places. And it is. Just sitting on that net felt so... I can't even think of the word for it... but thank you. I really owe you cookies now.

I should also thank everyone else. You all have made me feel so welcome and I can't even begin to thank you enough. Without you guys, I'd be sitting at home every night, missing home to no end.

The one I think I have to thank the most is Kaitlyn. I love you to pieces, Kitty. I am so glad to be able to able to see you and spend time with you like old times again. We may be older and, well maybe not so much, more mature, but I know that deep down inside us are those two middle school girls who still enjoy each other as though for the first time all over again. I think I may have to make you cookies too.

To all you back in Campbell River, don't think I've forgotten you. You still hold a big piece of my heart. Everytime I think of home I think of you, and love you all. You are my family, my friends, my love. I miss everyone and I can never wait until the next time I get to visit. One day I'll bring my new family and friends to you so we can all have fun watching the awful strippers or something. Or visa versa, I'll bring the first to the new and we can all enjoy kareoke.

... I just realized how nostalgic I sound..... I'm gonna stop now...

I need to go do something really random now... *wanders off*