What do you see out there in the light?

Strange Days ~ Matthew Good Band

Good morning
Don't cop out
You crawled from the cancer to land on your feet
Are you crazy to want this
Even for a while?
We're making this shit up
The reasons for being are easy to pay
You can't remember the others
They just kind of went away
So you're driving, it's rush hour
The cars on the freeway are moving like slugs
When you drift off to wake up
Do you always hit the brakes?

We're done lying for a living
The strange days have come and you're gone
Either dead or dying
Either dead or trying to go

It's evening, you're tired
You sleep walk, a robot out to the street
Are you crazy to want this, even for a while? you're driving, it's rush hour
The cars on the freeway are moving backwards
Into a wall of fire
Backwards
Into a wall of fire

We're done lying for a living
The strange days have come and you're gone
You're gone
Either dead or dying
Either dead or trying to go
Good morning
Don't cop out




Edit: So after I wrote this post I realized that when I was in one of the workshop days of my short fiction class, that one of my stories was compared to this video. It seemed that everyone really like the story and then when I went in search of this video to post here (I hadn't clued in that it was the same song, for some reason I was thinking Apparitions) it clicked in. I have always love this video, but I really didn't mean to have my story turn out pretty much exactly like it... that's my useless fact of the day....

What a strange week this has been...

So after the last time I post things went downhill. I'm gonna try to avoid talking about it too much at the risk of sounding depressive and emo, but let's just say that I was having a rough time getting out of it.

Major things that happened:
1) Fighting with Andy - This was the most uncool of them all. We ended up snapping at each other over silly things that really would never have gotten to us in any other case. I learned that I need to be more honest sooner.

2) Paper Week - Goddamm am I glad this is over. Maybe I won't be so stressed out all the time. Pretty sure I failed this last one... even though I stayed up until 6:30 this morning doing it.

3) Sleep habits - speaking of 6:30 am... I woke up at 7:15 I might add. I'm literally falling asleep in class right now. I have horrible sleep patterns right now and it's messing with me now. Any suggestions?

4) Friends are getting more depressed than me - last semester a very close friend of mine tried to kill himself, and another put himself through hell last night and a couple days before. Everyone seems to be getting such rough times lately and everyone is losing sight of all the good in their lives. I hate seeing my friends like this. Thankfully Richie is ok, aside from a broken nose and a cracked neck, but things are going to be hard for him in the next while.

5) School - pretty sure I might fail at least two of my classes this semester.

6) Money - I have none....


Ok... so that's out of my system, I'll get to the good stuff!

Andy and I have worked pretty much everything out between us now and I'm really glad. I miss him so much lately and I can't wait to see him. Things are going to be rough now that summer hours are starting for him soon and I may not get to see him much after next weekend. I think we can tough it out though, I think. I love you!

I'm really enjoying spending time with people. Saturday, I swear, was one of the best days I've had this year. Sadly Frogs was much lamer than we thought it was going to be (the frogs didn't even kill anyone!), but watching Sam Elliot 70s version saving people from various exotic animals that are very unnatural to Florida was kind of entertaining.... oh wait... no it wasn't. Thankfully TMNT made up for it. Even though I wasn't on a higher plain of existance like Ky, Jill, and Gregiore. Jordan, I still swear that Raf is GhostRider!! The WalMart adventure with Jill and Lisa M made my day too... we found some ugly clothing! I vote we do that again sometime soon, girls.

Hanging out with Geoff was been great too. As much as I like hanging out with the group, I enjoy having one on one time with people too. I kind of wish that I got to do the same with other people as well. I've come to the conclusion though that I want Geoff's family to adopt me. They are amazing people and are always so nice to me.

Watching One Acts with Martha yesterday was definitly a higlight of the past week. The two of us were laughing so hard! Martha is one of those people that I wish I knew better now because she's just so much fun to be around. As for the One Acts, good work guys! JAMES YOU NEED TO PUT ON THE CRAZY HAT WHEN YOU KILL BIFF!! We were so tempted to just yell at you from the audience to put the hat on.. I totally vote Gregiore for Pope too... And Joe is the most adorable thing to ever wear brown shoes!

Tonight I'm going to see Hitchhiker's Guide To The Galaxy and then go to karaoke afterwards. It'll be a good change from last night where I didn't sleep at all. After class I'm going to go sleep for a few hours or something so I don't crash later...

My final note... why is there a bump on the back of my head? It kind of hurts....

Side note: check out the video blog for the Ballad of the Warcraft N00b

There's an angel in my life...

Catch My Disease ~ Ben Lee

My head is a box filled with nothing
and that's the way I like it
My garden's a secret compartment
and that's the way I like it
and that's the way I like it
Your body's a dream that turns violent
and that's the way I like it
and that's the way I like it
The winter is long in the city
and that's the way I like it

So please
Baby please
Open your heart
Catch my disease

I was backstage in pomona
and that's the way I like it
She drank beer with Coca-Cola
and that's the way I like it
and that's the way I like it
She told me about the winds from Santa Ana
and that's the way I like it
and that's the way I like it
She told me she'd love me like fireworks
and that's the way I like it

So please
Baby please
open your eyes
and catch my disease
So please
Baby please
come on
and catch my disease

catch it
Na na na na na na na na na

they play good charlotte on the radio
and thats the way i like it
they play sleepy jackson on the radio
and thats the way i like it
and thats the way i like it
i hear beyonce on the radio
and thats the way i like it
and thats the way i like it
they dont play me on the radio
but thats the way i like it

So please
Baby please
Open your heart
and catch my disease

So please
Baby please
Come onnnnnnnn
And catch my disease
Catch my disease!

nananananananana
Catch my disease
nananananananana
Catch my disease
nananananananana
Catch my disease

nananananananana
nananananananana

nananananananana
nananana
nananananananana

Ok so I swear that this is one of the happiest song ever made. I had to find something like this to match this post because it just made my day....

Today I got to see a few of my relatives that I haven't seen for a long time because they live in Kelowna and they don't get to visit often. But my aunt and my two cousins, Hope (10) and Jenna (8) came over to have lunch with me, my mom and brother, my grandma, and my great grandma because they were taking a trip to Vancouver. So Allan drove me out to Terminal Park where I met them all at the Granery for lunch, and the two girls insisted that I sit between them.

We sit and get lunch and talk and what not, when Jenna looks at me. She says "You want to be a teacher right?" and I agree, so she nods and is quiet for a second and then adds, "I want to be a teacher too. Actually, I want to be just like you when I get older."

Did that ever make my day! I just hugged her and could help but smile for the rest of the time.

It just never ends....

I get the feeling that I'm going to get stuck in the middle of something that I really don't want to be in very soon. I don't know what it is or who it will be with, but I do know that it is not a good feeling.

I'll be putting party pictures up soon enough somewhere.