4 am ~ Our Lady Peace
I walked around my good intentions
And found that there were none
I blame my father for the wasted years
We hardly talked
I never thought I would forget this hate
Then a phone call made me realize I'm wrong
And If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong
I walked around my room
Not thinking
Just sinking in this box
I blame myself for being too much
Like somebody else
I never thought I would just
Bend this way
Then a phone call made me realize I'm wrong
And If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong
And I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong
Hope to God I figure out
I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong
If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out
what's wrong
And If I don't make it known that
I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out
So, I called Andy today between my second class and my night class. We were both in tears before about 15 minutes passed. Since I left last Monday, things have just gone to shit.
Bobby and Mike are fighting again. From what I heard I think they're done for good. It makes me sad.
Sean tried to kill himself last night. It was a good thing that I didn't call Andy last night or Sean wouldn't have been able to get through.... I don't want to even think of what might have happened. I admit, I want Sean around in my life. Thank goodness that he managed to get everything out of his stomach in time.
Andy is feeling so alone. In all truth, I do in a way too. I realize that people around here are here, but it's still just not the same. Everything that has been going on around CR is starting to weigh on him. Especially all the stuff with Bobby and Mike. He's afraid that Mitch is going to grow up the same way he did.
Things are hectic there and I feel so helpless against it because I'm so far away. Andy's gone to see about anti-depressants again, Sean is still alive, and who knows about the other two, so I guess it's ok, right?
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Jeesus,, last night just wasnt a good night for many people was it. sorry bout not responding earlier I had wandered off and forgot to log off
That's ok Matt. I figured it was something like that. Though if you can get a chance to call Andy, I would suggest doing so. He's not too happy lately.
Drea, I seem to have lost your number, but I'm up for drinks and chilling together. Wednesday we're going to the bar again if you wanna join us.
hey kids, sounds like all is wonderfully happy back home.
hugs and kisses all around (except to sean and andy. you guys get an uncomfortable platonic man-hug.)
I'll be on the Island in December and fully intend to come visit with everyone. E-mail me your numbers, if you please, to nicholasfontaine@gmail.com...especially Bobby's, if anyone has it...
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